Twilight 暮光之城
作者: Stephenie Meyer
作者: Stephenie Meyer
內容簡介:
17歲的伊莎貝拉·斯旺是有智慧有氣質、廣受歡迎的少女,因為母親的再婚,她將自己流放到了福克斯(Forks)這個偏僻且終年陰雨的小鎮上,結識了一個神秘的同班男同學愛德華·卡倫,這個男同學來自一個“素食”的吸血鬼家族,可是貝拉身上的特殊香氣吸引著他——他一聞到就想吸她的血,可又為了愛而拼命壓抑自己的慾望,不顧一切保護她,且書的後部分與家人同想殺她的吸血鬼戰鬥。她怎麼也想不到,就是這個抉擇,讓她與他相遇在命運的十字路口。眼神交會的那一瞬,彼此之間已經明白,等待他們的,除了幸福的誘惑,還有危險的深淵。互相傾心的兩人,在愛情與危險間擺盪,一起度過新鮮而刺激的每一天,就像久違的陽光一樣,灑落在浪漫的暮光之城。
作者簡介:
史蒂芬妮·梅爾擁有「第二羅琳」稱號。畢業於楊百翰大學,擁有英文學士學位。目前居住於亞利桑那州鳳凰城。第一本小說《Twilight》出版後,她便因此系列小說而被書店票選為2005年最佳新秀作家之一。
Twilight
Stephenie Meyer
2005 Preface
I'd never given much thought to how I would
die — though I'd had reason enough in the last few months — but even if I had,
I would not have imagined it like this.
I stared without breathing across the long
room, into the dark eyes of the hunter, and he looked pleasantly back at me.
Surely it was a good way to die, in the
place of someone else, someone I loved. Noble, even. That ought to count for
something.
I knew that if I'd never gone to Forks, I
wouldn't be facing death now. But, terrified as I was, I couldn't bring myself
to regret the decision. When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your
expectations, it's not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end. The hunter
smiled in a friendly way as he sauntered forward to kill me.
1. First Sight
My mother drove me to the airport with the
windows rolled down. It was seventy-five degrees in Phoenix, the sky a perfect,
cloudless blue. I was wearing my favorite shirt — sleeveless, white eyelet
lace; I was wearing it as a farewell gesture. My carry-on item was a parka.
In the Olympic Peninsula of northwest
Washington State, a small town named Forks exists under a near-constant cover
of clouds. It rains on this inconsequential town more than any other place in
the United States of America. It was from this town and its gloomy, omnipresent
shade that my mother escaped with me when I was only a few months old. It was
in this town that I'd been compelled to spend a month every summer until I was
fourteen. That was the year I finally put my foot down; these past three
summers, my dad, Charlie, vacationed with me in California for two weeks
instead.
It was to Forks that I now exiled myself—
an action that I took with great horror. I detested Forks.
I loved Phoenix. I loved the sun and the
blistering heat. I loved the vigorous, sprawling city.
"Bella," my mom said to me — the
last of a thousand times — before I got on the plane. "You don't have to
do this."
My mom looks like me, except with short
hair and laugh lines. I felt a spasm of panic as I stared at her wide,
childlike eyes. How could I leave my loving, erratic, harebrained mother to
fend for herself? Of course she had Phil now, so the bills would probably get
paid, there would be food in the refrigerator, gas in her car, and someone to
call when she got lost, but still…
"I want to go," I lied. I'd
always been a bad liar, but I'd been saying this lie so frequently lately that
it sounded almost convincing now.
"Tell Charlie I said hi."
"I will."
"I'll see you soon," she
insisted. "You can come home whenever you want — I'll come right back as
soon as you need me."
But I could see the sacrifice in her eyes
behind the promise.
"Don't worry about me," I urged.
"It'll be great. I love you, Mom."
She hugged me tightly for a minute, and
then I got on the plane, and she was gone.
It's a four-hour flight from Phoenix to
Seattle, another hour in a small plane up to Port Angeles, and then an hour
drive back down to Forks. Flying doesn't bother me; the hour in the car with
Charlie, though, I was a little worried about.
Charlie had really been fairly nice about
the whole thing. He seemed genuinely pleased that I was coming to live with him
for the first time with any degree of permanence. He'd already gotten me
registered for high school and was going to help me get a car.
But it was sure to be awkward with Charlie.
Neither of us was what anyone would call verbose, and I didn't know what there
was to say regardless. I knew he was more than a little confused by my decision
— like my mother before me, I hadn't made a secret of my distaste for Forks.
When I landed in Port Angeles, it was
raining. I didn't see it as an omen — just unavoidable. I'd already said my
goodbyes to the sun.
Charlie was waiting for me with the
cruiser. This I was expecting, too. Charlie is Police Chief Swan to the good
people of Forks. My primary motivation behind buying a car, despite the
scarcity of my funds, was that I refused to be driven around town in a car with
red and blue lights on top. Nothing slows down traffic like a cop.
Charlie gave me an awkward, one-armed hug
when I stumbled my way off the plane.
"It's good to see you, Bells," he
said, smiling as he automatically caught and steadied me. "You haven't
changed much. How's Renée?"
"Mom's fine. It's good to see you,
too, Dad." I wasn't allowed to call him Charlie to his face.
I had only a few bags. Most of my Arizona
clothes were too permeable for Washington. My mom and I had pooled our
resources to supplement my winter wardrobe, but it was still scanty. It all fit
easily into the trunk of the cruiser.
"I found a good car for you, really
cheap," he announced when we were strapped in.
"What kind of car?" I was
suspicious of the way he said "good car for you" as opposed to just
"good car."
"Well, it's a truck actually, a
Chevy."
"Where did you find it?"
"Do you remember Billy Black down at
La Push?" La Push is the tiny Indian reservation on the coast.
"No."
"He used to go fishing with us during
the summer," Charlie prompted. That would explain why I didn't remember
him. I do a good job of blocking painful, unnecessary things from my memory.
"He's in a wheelchair now,"
Charlie continued when I didn't respond, "so he can't drive anymore, and
he offered to sell me his truck cheap."
"What year is it?" I could see
from his change of expression that this was the question he was hoping I
wouldn't ask.
"Well, Billy's done a lot of work on
the engine — it's only a few years old, really."
I hoped he didn't think so little of me as
to believe I would give up that easily. "When did he buy it?"
"He bought it in 1984, I think."
"Did he buy it new?"
"Well, no. I think it was new in the
early sixties — or late fifties at the earliest," he admitted sheepishly.
"Ch — Dad, I don't really know
anything about cars. I wouldn't be able to fix it if anything went wrong, and I
couldn't afford a mechanic…"
"Really, Bella, the thing runs great.
They don't build them like that anymore." The thing, I thought to myself…
it had possibilities — as a nickname, at the very least.
"How cheap is cheap?" After all,
that was the part I couldn't compromise on.
"Well, honey, I kind of already bought
it for you. As a homecoming gift." Charlie peeked sideways at me with a
hopeful expression.
Wow. Free.
"You didn't need to do that, Dad. I
was going to buy myself a car."
"I don't mind. I want you to be happy
here." He was looking ahead at the road when he said this. Charlie wasn't
comfortable with expressing his emotions out loud. I inherited that from him.
So I was looking straight ahead as I responded.
"That's really nice, Dad. Thanks. I
really appreciate it." No need to add that my being happy in Forks is an
impossibility. He didn't need to suffer along with me. And I never looked a
free truck in the mouth — or engine.
"Well, now, you're welcome," he
mumbled, embarrassed by my thanks. We exchanged a few more comments on the
weather, which was wet, and that was pretty much it for Conversation. We stared
out the windows in silence.
It was beautiful, of course; I couldn't
deny that. Everything was green: the trees, their trunks covered with moss,
their branches hanging with a canopy of it, the ground covered with ferns. Even
the air filtered down greenly through the leaves.
It was too green — an alien planet.
Eventually we made it to Charlie's. He
still lived in the small, two-bedroom house that he'd bought with my mother in
the early days of their marriage. Those were the only kind of days their
marriage had — the early ones. There, parked on the street in front of the
house that never changed, was my new — well, new to me — truck. It was a faded
red color, with big, rounded fenders and a bulbous cab. To my intense surprise,
I loved it. I didn't know if it would run, but I could see myself in it. Plus,
it was one of those solid iron affairs that never gets damaged — the kind you
see at the scene of an accident, paint unscratched, surrounded by the pieces of
the foreign car it had destroyed.
"Wow, Dad, I love it! Thanks!"
Now my horrific day tomorrow would be just that much less dreadful. I wouldn't
be faced with the choice of either walking two miles in the rain to school or
accepting a ride in the Chief's cruiser.
"I'm glad you like it," Charlie
said gruffly, embarrassed again.
It took only one trip to get all my stuff
upstairs. I got the west bedroom that faced out over the front yard. The room
was familiar; it had been belonged to me since I was born. The wooden floor,
the light blue walls, the peaked ceiling, the yellowed lace curtains around the
window — these were all a part of my childhood. The only changes Charlie had
ever made were switching the crib for a bed and adding a desk as I grew. The
desk now held a secondhand computer, with the phone line for the modem stapled
along the floor to the nearest phone jack. This was a stipulation from my
mother, so that we could stay in touch easily. The rocking chair from my baby
days was still in the corner. There was only one small bathroom at the top of
the stairs, which I would have to share with Charlie. I was trying not to dwell
too much on that fact.
One of the best things about Charlie is he
doesn't hover. He left me alone to unpack and get settled, a feat that would
have been altogether impossible for my mother. It was nice to be alone, not to
have to smile and look pleased; a relief to stare dejectedly out the window at
the sheeting rain and let just a few tears escape. I wasn't in the mood to go
on a real crying jag. I would save that for bedtime, when I would have to think
about the coming morning.
Forks High School had a frightening total
of only three hundred and fifty-seven — now fifty-eight — students; there were
more than seven hundred people in my junior class alone back home. All of the
kids here had grown up together — their grandparents had been toddlers
together.
I would be the new girl from the big city,
a curiosity, a freak.
Maybe, if I looked like a girl from Phoenix
should, I could work this to my advantage. But physically, I'd never fit in
anywhere. I should be tan, sporty, blond — a volleyball player, or a
cheerleader, perhaps — all the things that go with living in the valley of the
sun.
Instead, I was ivory-skinned, without even
the excuse of blue eyes or red hair, despite the constant sunshine. I had
always been slender, but soft somehow, obviously not an athlete; I didn't have
the necessary hand-eye coordination to play sports without humiliating myself —
and harming both myself and anyone else who stood too close. When I finished
putting my clothes in the old pine dresser, I took my bag of bathroom
necessities and went to the communal bathroom to clean myself up after the day
of travel. I looked at my face in the mirror as I brushed through my tangled,
damp hair. Maybe it was the light, but already I looked sallower, unhealthy. My
skin could be pretty — it was very clear, almost translucent-looking — but it
all depended on color. I had no color here.
Facing my pallid reflection in the mirror,
I was forced to admit that I was lying to myself. It wasn't just physically
that I'd never fit in. And if I couldn't find a niche in a school with three
thousand people, what were my chances here?
I didn't relate well to people my age.
Maybe the truth was that I didn't relate well to people, period. Even my
mother, who I was closer to than anyone else on the planet, was never in
harmony with me, never on exactly the same page. Sometimes I wondered if I was
seeing the same things through my eyes that the rest of the world was seeing
through theirs. Maybe there was a glitch in my brain. But the cause didn't
matter. All that mattered was the effect. And tomorrow would be just the
beginning.
I didn't sleep well that night, even after
I was done crying. The constant whooshing of the rain and wind across the roof
wouldn't fade into the background. I pulled the faded old quilt over my head,
and later added the pillow, too. But I couldn't fall asleep until after
midnight, when the rain finally settled into a quieter drizzle.
Thick fog was all I could see out my window
in the morning, and I could feel the claustrophobia creeping up on me. You
could never see the sky here; it was like a cage.
Breakfast with Charlie was a quiet event.
He wished me good luck at school. I thanked him, knowing his hope was wasted.
Good luck tended to avoid me. Charlie left first, off to the police station
that was his wife and family. After he left, I sat at the old square oak table
in one of the three unmatching chairs and examined his small kitchen, with its
dark paneled walls, bright yellow cabinets, and white linoleum floor. Nothing
was changed. My mother had painted the cabinets eighteen years ago in an
attempt to bring some sunshine into the house. Over the small fireplace in the
adjoining handkerchief-sized family room was a row of pictures. First a wedding
picture of Charlie and my mom in Las Vegas, then one of the three of us in the
hospital after I was born, taken by a helpful nurse, followed by the procession
of my school pictures up to last year's. Those were embarrassing to look at — I
would have to see what I could do to get Charlie to put them somewhere else, at
least while I was living here.
It was impossible, being in this house, not
to realize that Charlie had never gotten over my mom. It made me uncomfortable.
I didn't want to be too early to school,
but I couldn't stay in the house anymore. I donned my jacket — which had the
feel of a biohazard suit — and headed out into the rain.
It was just drizzling still, not enough to
soak me through immediately as I reached for the house key that was always
hidden under the eaves by the door, and locked up. The sloshing of my new
waterproof boots was unnerving. I missed the normal crunch of gravel as I
walked. I couldn't pause and admire my truck again as I wanted; I was in a
hurry to get out of the misty wet that swirled around my head and clung to my
hair under my hood.
Inside the truck, it was nice and dry.
Either Billy or Charlie had obviously cleaned it up, but the tan upholstered
seats still smelled faintly of tobacco, gasoline, and peppermint. The engine
started quickly, to my relief, but loudly, roaring to life and then idling at
top volume. Well, a truck this old was bound to have a flaw. The antique radio
worked, a plus that I hadn't expected.
Finding the school wasn't difficult, though
I'd never been there before. The school was, like most other things, just off
the highway. It was not obvious that it was a school; only the sign, which
declared it to be the Forks High School, made me stop. It looked like a
collection of matching houses, built with maroon-colored bricks. There were so
many trees and shrubs I couldn't see its size at first. Where was the feel of
the institution? I wondered nostalgically. Where were the chain-link fences,
the metal detectors?
I parked in front of the first building,
which had a small sign over the door reading front office. No one else was
parked there, so I was sure it was off limits, but I decided I would get
directions inside instead of circling around in the rain like an idiot. I
stepped unwillingly out of the toasty truck cab and walked down a little stone
path lined with dark hedges. I took a deep breath before opening the door.
Inside, it was brightly lit, and warmer
than I'd hoped. The office was small; a little waiting area with padded folding
chairs, orange-flecked commercial carpet, notices and awards cluttering the
walls, a big clock ticking loudly. Plants grew everywhere in large plastic
pots, as if there wasn't enough greenery outside. The room was cut in half by a
long counter, cluttered with wire baskets full of papers and brightly colored
flyers taped to its front. There were three desks behind the counter, one of
which was manned by a large, red-haired woman wearing glasses. She was wearing
a purple t-shirt, which immediately made me feel overdressed.
The red-haired woman looked up. "Can I
help you?"
"I'm Isabella Swan," I informed
her, and saw the immediate awareness light her eyes. I was expected, a topic of
gossip no doubt. Daughter of the Chief's flighty ex-wife, come home at last.
"Of course," she said. She dug
through a precariously stacked pile of documents on her desk till she found the
ones she was looking for. "I have your schedule right here, and a map of
the school." She brought several sheets to the counter to show roe.
She went through my classes for me,
highlighting the best route to each on the map, and gave me a slip to have each
teacher sign, which I was to bring back at the end of the day. She smiled at me
and hoped, like Charlie, that I would like it here in Forks. I smiled back as convincingly
as I could.
When I went back out to my truck, other
students were starting to arrive. I drove around the school, following the line
of traffic. I was glad to see that most of the cars were older like mine,
nothing flashy. At home I'd lived in one of the few lower-income neighborhoods
that were included in the Paradise Valley District. It was a common thing to
see a new Mercedes or Porsche in the student lot. The nicest car here was a
shiny Volvo, and it stood out. Still, I cut the engine as soon as I was in a
spot, so that the thunderous volume wouldn't draw attention to me.
I looked at the map in the truck, trying to
memorize it now; hopefully I wouldn't have to walk around with it stuck in
front of my nose all day. I stuffed everything in my bag, slung the strap over
my shoulder, and sucked in a huge breath. I can do this, I lied to myself
feebly. No one was going to bite me. I finally exhaled and stepped out of the
truck.
I kept my face pulled back into my hood as
I walked to the sidewalk, crowded with teenagers. My plain black jacket didn't
stand out, I noticed with relief.
Once I got around the cafeteria, building
three was easy to spot. A large black "3" was painted on a white
square on the east corner. I felt my breathing gradually creeping toward
hyperventilation as I approached the door. I tried holding my breath as I
followed two unisex raincoats through the door.
The classroom was small. The people in
front of me stopped just inside the door to hang up their coats on a long row
of hooks. I copied them. They were two girls, one a porcelain-colored blonde,
the other also pale, with light brown hair. At least my skin wouldn't be a
standout here.
I took the slip up to the teacher, a tall,
balding man whose desk had a nameplate identifying him as Mr. Mason. He gawked
at me when he saw my name — not an encouraging response — and of course I
flushed tomato red. But at least he sent me to an empty desk at the back
without introducing me to the class. It was harder for my new classmates to
stare at me in the back, but somehow, they managed. I kept my eyes down on the
reading list the teacher had given me. It was fairly basic: Bronte,
Shakespeare, Chaucer, Faulkner. I'd already read everything. That was
comforting… and boring. I wondered if my mom would send me my folder of old
essays, or if she would think that was cheating. I went through different
arguments with her in my head while the teacher droned on.
When the bell rang, a nasal buzzing sound,
a gangly boy with skin problems and hair black as an oil slick leaned across
the aisle to talk to me.
"You're Isabella Swan, aren't
you?" He looked like the overly helpful, chess club type.
"Bella," I corrected. Everyone
within a three-seat radius turned to look at me.
"Where's your next class?" he
asked.
I had to check in my bag." Um,
Government, with Jefferson, in building six." There was nowhere to look
without meeting curious eyes.
"I'm headed toward building four, I
could show you the way…"Definitely over-helpful. "I'm Eric," he
added.
I smiled tentatively. "Thanks."
We got our jackets and headed out into the
rain, which had picked up. I could have sworn several people behind us were
walking close enough to eavesdrop. I hoped I wasn't getting paranoid.
"So, this is a lot different than
Phoenix, huh?" he asked.
"Very."
"It doesn't rain much there, does
it?"
"Three or four times a year."
"Wow, what must that be like?" he
wondered.
"Sunny," I told him.
"You don't look very tan."
"My mother is part albino."
He studied my face apprehensively, and I
sighed. It looked like clouds and a sense of humor didn't mix. A few months of
this and I'd forget how to use sarcasm. We walked back around the cafeteria, to
the south buildings by the gym. Eric walked me right to the door, though it was
clearly marked.
"Well, good luck," he said as I
touched the handle. "Maybe we'll have some other classes together."
He sounded hopeful.
I smiled at him vaguely and went inside.
The rest of the morning passed in about the
same fashion. My Trigonometry teacher, Mr. Varner, who I would have hated
anyway just because of the subject he taught, was the only one who made me
stand in front of the class and introduce myself. I stammered, blushed, and
tripped over my own boots on the way to my seat.
After two classes, I started to recognize
several of the faces in each class. There was always someone braver than the
others who would introduce themselves and ask me questions about how I was
liking Forks. I tried to be diplomatic, but mostly I just lied a lot. At least
I never needed the map.
One girl sat next to me in both Trig and
Spanish, and she walked with me to the cafeteria for lunch. She was tiny,
several inches shorter than my five feet four inches, but her wildly curly dark
hair made up a lot of the difference between our heights. I couldn't remember
her name, so I smiled and nodded as she prattled about teachers and classes. I
didn't try to keep up.
We sat at the end of a full table with
several of her friends, who she introduced to me. I forgot all their names as
soon as she spoke them. They seemed impressed by her bravery in speaking to me.
The boy from English, Eric, waved at me from across the room.
It was there, sitting in the lunchroom,
trying to make conversation with seven curious strangers, that I first saw
them.
They were sitting in the corner of the
cafeteria, as far away from where I sat as possible in the long room. There
were five of them. They weren't talking, and they weren't eating, though they
each had a tray of untouched food in front of them. They weren't gawking at me,
unlike most of the other students, so it was safe to stare at them without fear
of meeting an excessively interested pair of eyes. But it was none of these
things that caught, and held, my attention.
They didn't look anything alike. Of the
three boys, one was big — muscled like a serious weight lifter, with dark,
curly hair. Another was taller, leaner, but still muscular, and honey blond.
The last was lanky, less bulky, with untidy, bronze-colored hair. He was more
boyish than the others, who looked like they could be in college, or even
teachers here rather than students.
The girls were opposites. The tall one was
statuesque. She had a beautiful figure, the kind you saw on the cover of the
Sports Illustrated swimsuit issue, the kind that made every girl around her
take a hit on her self-esteem just by being in the same room. Her hair was
golden, gently waving to the middle of her back. The short girl was pixie like, thin in the extreme, with small features.
Her hair was a deep black, cropped short and pointing in every direction.
And yet, they were all exactly alike. Every
one of them was chalky pale, the palest of all the students living in this sunless
town. Paler than me, the albino. They all had very dark eyes despite the range
in hair tones. They also had dark shadows under those eyes — purplish, bruise like shadows. As if they were all suffering
from a sleepless night, or almost done recovering from a broken nose. Though
their noses, all their features, were straight, perfect, angular.
But all this is not why I couldn't look
away.
I stared because their faces, so different,
so similar, were all devastatingly, inhumanly beautiful. They were faces you
never expected to see except perhaps on the airbrushed pages of a fashion
magazine. Or painted by an old master as the face of an angel. It was hard to
decide who was the most beautiful — maybe the perfect blond girl, or the bronze haired boy.
They were all looking away — away from each
other, away from the other students, away from anything in particular as far as
I could tell. As I watched, the small girl rose with her tray — unopened soda,
unbitten apple — and walked away with a quick, graceful lope that belonged on a
runway. I watched, amazed at her lithe dancer's step, till she dumped her tray
and glided through the back door, faster than I would have thought possible. My
eyes darted back to the others, who sat unchanging.
"Who are they?" I asked the girl
from my Spanish class, whose name I'd forgotten. As she looked up to see who I
meant — though already knowing, probably, from my tone — suddenly he looked at
her, the thinner one, the boyish one, the youngest, perhaps. He looked at my
neighbor for just a fraction of a second, and then his dark eyes flickered to
mine.
He looked away quickly, more quickly than I
could, though in a flush of embarrassment I dropped my eyes at once. In that
brief flash of a glance, his face held nothing of interest — it was as if she
had called his name, and he'd looked up in involuntary response, already having
decided not to answer.
My neighbor giggled in embarrassment,
looking at the table like I did.
"That's Edward and Emmett Cullen, and
Rosalie and Jasper Hale. The one who left was Alice Cullen; they all live
together with Dr. Cullen and his wife." She said this under her breath.
I glanced sideways at the beautiful boy,
who was looking at his tray now, picking a bagel to pieces with long, pale
fingers. His mouth was moving very quickly, his perfect lips barely opening.
The other three still looked away, and yet I felt he was speaking quietly to
them.
Strange, unpopular names, I thought. The
kinds of names grandparents had. But maybe that was in vogue here — small town
names? I finally remembered that my neighbor was called Jessica, a perfectly
common name. There were two girls named Jessica in my History class back home.
"They are… very nice-looking." I
struggled with the conspicuous understatement.
"Yes!" Jessica agreed with
another giggle. "They're all together though — Emmett and Rosalie, and
Jasper and Alice, I mean. And they live together." Her voice held all the
shock and condemnation of the small town, I thought critically. But, if I was
being honest, I had to admit that even in Phoenix, it would cause gossip.
"Which ones are the Cullens?" I
asked. "They don't look related…"
"Oh, they're not. Dr. Cullen is really
young, in his twenties or early thirties. They're all adopted. The Hales are
brother and sister, twins — the blondes — and they're foster children."
"They look a little old for foster
children."
"They are now, Jasper and Rosalie are
both eighteen, but they've been with Mrs. Cullen since they were eight. She's
their aunt or something like that."
"That's really kind of nice — for them
to take care of all those kids like that, when they're so young and
everything."
"I guess so," Jessica admitted
reluctantly, and I got the impression that she didn't like the doctor and his
wife for some reason. With the glances she was throwing at their adopted
children, I would presume the reason was jealousy. "I think that Mrs.
Cullen can't have any kids, though," she added, as if that lessened their kindness.
Throughout all this conversation, my eyes
flickered again and again to the table where the strange family sat. They
continued to look at the walls and not eat.
"Have they always lived in
Forks?" I asked. Surely I would have noticed them on one of my summers
here.
"No," she said in a voice that
implied it should be obvious, even to a new arrival like me. "They just
moved down two years ago from somewhere in Alaska."
I felt a surge of pity, and relief. Pity
because, as beautiful as they were, they were outsiders, clearly not accepted.
Relief that I wasn't the only newcomer here, and certainly not the most
interesting by any standard.
As I examined them, the youngest, one of
the Cullens, looked up and met my gaze, this time with evident curiosity in his
expression. As I looked swiftly away, it seemed to me that his glance held some
kind of unmet expectation.
"Which one is the boy with the reddish
brown hair?" I asked. I peeked at him from the corner of my eye, and he
was still staring at me, but not gawking like the other students had today — he
had a slightly frustrated expression. I looked down again.
"That's Edward. He's gorgeous, of
course, but don't waste your time. He doesn't date. Apparently none of the
girls here are good-looking enough for him." She sniffed, a clear case of
sour grapes. I wondered when he'd turned her down.
I bit my lip to hide my smile. Then I
glanced at him again. His face was turned away, but I thought his cheek
appeared lifted, as if he were smiling, too.
After a few more minutes, the four of them
left the table together. They all were noticeably graceful — even the big,
brawny one. It was unsettling to watch. The one named Edward didn't look at me
again.
I sat at the table with Jessica and her
friends longer than I would have if I'd been sitting alone. I was anxious not
to be late for class on my first day. One of my new acquaintances, who
considerately reminded me that her name was Angela, had Biology II with me the
next hour. We walked to class together in silence. She was shy, too. When we
entered the classroom, Angela went to sit at a black-topped lab table exactly
like the ones I was used to. She already had a neighbor. In fact, all the
tables were filled but one. Next to the center aisle, I recognized Edward
Cullen by his unusual hair, sitting next to that single open seat.
As I walked down the aisle to introduce
myself to the teacher and get my slip signed, I was watching him surreptitiously.
Just as I passed, he suddenly went rigid in his seat. He stared at me again,
meeting my eyes with the strangest expression on his face — it was hostile,
furious. I looked away quickly, shocked, going red again. I stumbled over a
book in the walkway and had to catch myself on the edge of a table. The girl
sitting there giggled.
I'd noticed that his eyes were black — coal
black.
Mr. Banner signed my slip and handed me a
book with no nonsense about introductions. I could tell we were going to get along.
Of course, he had no choice but to send me to the one open seat in the middle
of the room. I kept my eyes down as I went to sit by him, bewildered by the
antagonistic stare he'd given me.
I didn't look up as I set my book on the
table and took my seat, but I saw his posture change from the corner of my eye.
He was leaning away from me, sitting on the extreme edge of his chair and
averting his face like he smelled something bad. Inconspicuously, I sniffed my
hair. It smelled like strawberries, the scent of my favorite shampoo. It seemed
an innocent enough odor. I let my hair fall over my right shoulder, making a
dark curtain between us, and tried to pay attention to the teacher.
Unfortunately the lecture was on cellular
anatomy, something I'd already studied. I took notes carefully anyway, always
looking down.
I couldn't stop myself from peeking
occasionally through the screen of my hair at the strange boy next to me.
During the whole class, he never relaxed his stiff position on the edge of his
chair, sitting as far from me as possible. I could see his hand on his left leg
was clenched into a fist, tendons standing out under his pale skin. This, too,
he never relaxed. He had the long sleeves of his white shirt pushed up to his
elbows, and his forearm was surprisingly hard and muscular beneath his light
skin. He wasn't nearly as slight as he'd looked next to his burly brother.
The class seemed to drag on longer than the
others. Was it because the day was finally coming to a close, or because I was
waiting for his tight fist to loosen? It never did; he continued to sit so
still it looked like he wasn't breathing. What was wrong with him? Was this his
normal behavior? I questioned my judgment on Jessica's bitterness at lunch
today. Maybe she was not as resentful as I'd thought.
It couldn't have anything to do with me. He
didn't know me from Eve.
I peeked up at him one more time, and
regretted it. He was glaring down at me again, his black eyes full of
revulsion. As I flinched away from him, shrinking against my chair, the phra
seif looks could kill suddenly ran through my mind.
At that moment, the bell rang loudly,
making me jump, and Edward Cullen was out of his seat. Fluidly he rose — he was
much taller than I'd thought — his back to me, and he was out the door before
anyone else was out of their seat.
I sat frozen in my seat, staring blankly
after him. He was so mean. It wasn't fair. I began gathering up my things
slowly, trying to block the anger that filled me, for fear my eyes would tear
up. For some reason, my temper was hardwired to my tear ducts. I usually cried
when I was angry, a humiliating tendency.
"Aren't you Isabella Swan?" a
male voice asked.
I looked up to see a cute, baby-faced boy,
his pale blond hair carefully gelled into orderly spikes, smiling at me in a
friendly way. He obviously didn't think I smelled bad.
"Bella," I corrected him, with a
smile.
"I'm Mike."
"Hi, Mike."
"Do you need any help finding your
next class?"
"I'm headed to the gym, actually. I
think I can find it."
"That's my next class, too." He
seemed thrilled, though it wasn't that big of a coincidence in a school this
small.
We walked to class together; he was a
chatterer — he supplied most of the conversation, which made it easy for me.
He'd lived in California till he was ten, so he knew how I felt about the sun.
It turned out he was in my English class also. He was the nicest person I'd met
today.
But as we were entering the gym, he asked,
"So, did you stab Edward Cullen with a pencil or what? I've never seen him
act like that."
I cringed. So I wasn't the only one who had
noticed. And, apparently, that wasn't Edward Cullen's usual behavior. I decided
to play dumb.
"Was that the boy I sat next to in
Biology?" I asked artlessly.
"Yes," he said. "He looked
like he was in pain or something."
"I don't know," I responded.
"I never spoke to him."
"He's a weird guy." Mike lingered
by me instead of heading to the dressing room. "If I were lucky enough to
sit by you, I would have talked to you."
I smiled at him before walking through the
girls' locker room door. He was friendly and clearly admiring. But it wasn't
enough to ease my irritation.
The Gym teacher, Coach Clapp, found me a
uniform but didn't make me dress down for today's class. At home, only two
years of RE. were required. Here, P.E. was mandatory all four years. Forks was
literally my personal hell on Earth.
I watched four volleyball games running
simultaneously. Remembering how many injuries I had sustained — and inflicted —
playing volleyball, I felt faintly nauseated. The final bell rang at last. I
walked slowly to the office to return my paperwork. The rain had drifted away,
but the wind was strong, and colder. I wrapped my arms around myself.
When I walked into the warm office, I
almost turned around and walked back out.
Edward Cullen stood at the desk in front of
me. I recognized again that tousled bronze hair. He didn't appear to notice the
sound of my entrance. I stood pressed against the back wall, waiting for the
receptionist to be free.
He was arguing with her in a low,
attractive voice. I quickly picked up the gist of the argument. He was trying
to trade from sixth-hour Biology to another time — any other time.
I just couldn't believe that this was about
me. It had to be something else, something that happened before I entered the
Biology room. The look on his face must have been about another aggravation
entirely. It was impossible that this stranger could take such a sudden,
intense dislike to me.
The door opened again, and the cold wind
suddenly gusted through the room, rustling the papers on the desk, swirling my
hair around my face. The girl who came in merely stepped to the desk, placed a
note in the wire basket, and walked out again. But Edward Cullen's back
stiffened, and he turned slowly to glare at me — his face was absurdly handsome
— with piercing, hate-filled eyes. For an instant, I felt a thrill of genuine
fear, raising the hair on my arms. The look only lasted a second, but it
chilled me more than the freezing wind. He turned back to the receptionist.
"Never mind, then," he said
hastily in a voice like velvet. "I can see that it's impossible. Thank you
so much for your help." And he turned on his heel without another look at
me, and disappeared out the door.
I went meekly to the desk, my face white
for once instead of red, and handed her the signed slip.
"How did your first day go,
dear?" the receptionist asked maternally.
"Fine," I lied, my voice weak.
She didn't look convinced.
When I got to the truck, it was almost the
last car in the lot. It seemed like a haven, already the closest thing to home
I had in this damp green hole. I sat inside for a while, just staring out the
windshield blankly. But soon I was cold enough to need the heater, so I turned
the key and the engine roared to life. I headed back to Charlie's house,
fighting tears the whole way there.
2. Open Book
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